You Were My Everything

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldnt have hurt me like i aint shit
Then you pushed me away like you never even knew me

fuck the world with my chest full of smoke

goodbye winter.
hello spring.
new season, new beginnings.
forgetting and moving on
makes me moan ;D LOL! HAHA FCK sometimes i feel like a complete idiot. --
this blog shit is boring i am now over it :D

good morning, good afternoon and good night
<3

...

couple days ago i started talking to my ex since.....idk how long ago, in them couple days she kept talking to me nd everything was all fine. she started talking to me bout the randomest shits LOL, "people say i only went out with you coz you have a big dick" like wtf you dnt really need to say that sort of stuff HAHA

"u dont even know why i broke up with u do u ?"
i know the reason why you broke up with me,, ==
but you dnt hav to make up bullshit saying ohh yeah i didnt feel like i was good enough for you, being all nervous around me, fck bro that aint a reason at all to break up with me
shes so annoying == wont stop talking to me nowadays LOL


today was shit as!
i had a near death experience DD: at lunch sean punched me so hard in the back somewhere, it started hurting and i was on the floor.. =\ couldnt bloody BREATHE LOL
2nd last period was the highlight of my day :) the boys jamming in the music room omg it was so good, everyone was enjoying themselves

its a gift, not a passion

Second Chances

although you wish you had a second chance at doing something,
its not going to happen.
second chances dont come often.
second chances are only given to those who deserve it.
it has always been that way.
because, if everyone got to redo all their mistakes.
nobody would learn from them.
nd the world will just revolve around taking that second chance.

so live with that one chance you have.
you might not believe it.
but its more than enough.

thoughts..

ahh man...its so hard trusting the right people nowadays, telling them how i feel, my thoughts and when i tell them to keep it a secret they jst go off telling other people about it == FCKN $@!(
cheyyah sounding abit devo here :P but i guess im letting it out yoooo, dw bout a thing coz after all this mess NO MORE DEVO SHIT HAHAHA

well todayyy was pretty awesome....lunch and period 5 i was brawling with white kids LOL
idk someone punched me in the back hard and like i think theres a bruise there now >.>, back hurt all day and i was walking around FFS. after school went to parra with tiara, jess and avissa fack..i shall not say why we were there becuz a certain someone might be looking :@ LOL
bummed at btown with renz, saw people >.> said hi and bye...
had angus burger..lol its nothing special, everyone says it TASTESS SO GOOD but its jst the same as every fckn burger LOL

FCKN ANGUS :@

cant you give me an answer other than a”idk” im tired of waiting for a proper answer, you know ill still be here for you even if you make up your mind...but pls i need to know :)

iniisip ka

baby theres so much and so little time to replace the things ive broken ripped apart, and thrown away. you can say that you dontt miss me, i think about you every day

NeverShoutNever!

I'm sorry for the nights I let you down
Now all that's left to see is that I turned around
Back to the boy you fell in love with
Not this plague that brings you down
Remind your mom to call me I still care
Cause her approval meant the world
And I will not dare to disagree
With the life you arrange
Just remember only God knows if I've change
I'll sing along to every song
I type a lie for the ride
Cause in my head,
I'm right there tonight,
Through the good times
The bad ones too
I'm here for you
Cause in my dreams
You're the one who keeps me asleep
On the nights where I can care less

If I ever woke up again
<3

pouring my heart out

my so called waiting game failed, not a word has been said to me since yesterday and today...ive been staring at my phone and has been on the comp jst to wait for HER to talk or even giv attention to me, apparentally she still has feelings for me and would take me back, but right now theres nothing shes doing to show this....idk if shes still shy or jst..=\


school. it was very very boring :)
at lunch i was with vikki in the library ;D fckn looking at wheres wally or someshit LOL, shes such a bored kid D: taking luvos on my damn phone

sunday arvoo

recieved a txt from my mate on sunday arvo when i was out cruising telling me that he had some news to share with me, i called him up asked what was the problem....he took his maafukn time to tell me. when i heard the news about HER and eli staying together on saturday night my heart literally dropped D:
that arvo i got home i went online and got sent a link of them making out...i couldnt bear to look
i got so fckn pissed off but i hid my emotions from her, acted like i knew nothing
BUT how can i act like i knew nothing if its all over facebook...like wtf i dnt see why its even up there
that day i jst wasnt bothered to do anything == had an assignment due the next day but failed to hand that in....

i cbf typing D:

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25/08/09
hmmm, fck i hate this blog thing ><, but i need a place to let out my thoughts... right now ive been thinking about GINA lately i still really love her, and like theres a guy i jst wanna stab LOL! you know him anson ;) hahaha, i jst cant wait for the 29th, hoping my plan goes as smoothly :) hope so ;)

fck up anson